- Bible
- 2 Corinthians
- Chapter 12
- Verse 20
“For I fear, lest , when I come, I shall not find you such as I would, and that I shall be found unto you such as ye would not: lest there be debates, envyings, wraths, strifes, backbitings, whisperings, swellings, tumults:”
My Notes
What Does 2 Corinthians 12:20 Mean?
2 Corinthians 12:20 is Paul at his most anxious — and his most honest. He's planning a third visit to Corinth and he's afraid of what he'll find. The list of sins he names isn't random; it's a catalog of relational toxins: "debates" (eris, quarreling), "envyings" (zelos, jealous rivalry), "wraths" (thumoi, explosive anger), "strifes" (eritheiai, selfish ambition), "backbitings" (katalaliai, slander spoken to someone's face), "whisperings" (psithurismoi, gossip behind their backs), "swellings" (phusiōseis, arrogance), "tumults" (akatastasiai, disorder).
What's striking is that none of these are the dramatic sins churches usually worry about. There's no mention of sexual immorality or idolatry here — Paul has addressed those elsewhere. This list targets the sins that live in the relational fabric of a community. The kind that don't make headlines but destroy trust, fracture friendships, and make a church unbearable to be part of.
Paul's fear is double-edged: "I shall not find you such as I would, and I shall be found unto you such as ye would not." He's worried he'll find them unchanged — and that their condition will force him to be harsh in a way neither side wants. It's the dread of a leader who loves deeply enough to confront, but desperately wishes he didn't have to.
Reflection Questions
- 1.Which of the eight relational sins Paul lists here do you most recognize in your own community — or in yourself?
- 2.Why do you think these 'ordinary' relational sins are often harder to address than more dramatic failures?
- 3.Have you ever dreaded a conversation the way Paul dreads this visit? What gave you the courage to have it — or what held you back?
- 4.What would it look like for your community to honestly name these dynamics without it turning into another round of the same behavior?
Devotional
This verse doesn't read like Scripture at first glance. It reads like a text you'd send a friend before a difficult conversation: I'm scared of what I'm walking into.
Paul names eight relational poisons, and if you're honest, you've probably encountered most of them — maybe even practiced a few. Debates that aren't really about truth but about winning. Envy that masquerades as "just noticing." The whisper campaigns that start with "I'm only telling you this because I care." The quiet arrogance that ranks yourself above the people around you. None of these feel catastrophic in the moment. They feel normal. And that's exactly what makes them so dangerous.
What hits hardest is Paul's vulnerability. He doesn't thunder from a distance. He says "I fear." He's not above the mess — he's walking into it, dreading it, and doing it anyway because he loves these people. If you're in a community right now — a church, a friend group, a family — where these dynamics are creeping in, Paul's honesty here is permission to name what's happening. Not with self-righteousness, but with the same fear and love that drove him to write this sentence in the first place.
Commentary
Trusted original commentary from respected historical Bible scholars and theologians.
For I fear, lest, when I come - see 2Co 12:14. I shall not find you such as I would - That is, walking in the truth and…
I fear, lest, when I come - I think the present time is used here for the past; the apostle seems most evidently to be…
In these verses the apostle addresses himself to the Corinthians two ways: -
I. He blames them for what was faulty in…
For The connection of thought is, -I do this for your edification, of which there is much need, for there are many…
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